The Heart Has Reasons, That reasons does not understand

I'm So disappointed wit my ownself
how cud i say such mean words?
I cried the whole night just tinkin abt it.
it isnt the same anymore.
sometimes when anger controls me, i tend to say those hurtful words
she cried bcos of me. 1st time ever.
i apologised to her face to face, bt she ask me to go away.
i cried.
i msg her, she den forgiven me. somehow?
not too sure.
right nw, it feels just so awkward.
we dun talk much like the way we used to.
i regret. totally regret.
how i wish i cud turn back time
and everytink wud be the same.
a lesson learnt indeed.
we shudnt curse ppl just like dat.


IF ONLY...