The Heart Has Reasons, That reasons does not understand

2 wks of MT intensive finally ended.
glad cos no more goin back home late.
& sad at the same time ( bcos of some reason, jannah u shud know.. hehh. )

niwaes, im worried, even numerous MT intensive given, bt my marks still din improve much.
even gt some D7 & C5. hais.. mira..mira.. tsk3...

improved on ppr 2. bt nt fr ppr 1. 37 siak!!!!!
dat is awfullllllllllllllllllllllll.

niwaes, 100 thnks to ckg mis fr giving us dat helping hand.
it means alot, and cud say dat, i improved on ppr 2.
terima kasih byk2 ckg mis!

just now only went thru previous mock pprs and hwks.
end at 1230. head off to air rifle range.
for some survey thingy and tchers to have their final say.
and, ckg ahmad said some prayers.
actually i felt like crying.
haha. its like aft 2 wks of enduring the stress & our hard work
as well as tchers hard work.
finally came to this one moment.
one final blow.
MONDAY.

it reminisce back my 2 wks in a new learning environment
nice knowing all the 4E's.
well fr sure im gonna keep those memories.
those laughing moments wit ckg mis and all..
once again.. thnks a lot ckg mis!

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Ystd, gotten rprt books.
as soon as i got my rprt books.
Abg John said, "im disappointed in u azmira, you have gone down the drain"
well i was just speechless. and smiled at him.
he shook his head..
well, i was so crushed wen he said dat. dammnn. am i dat bad ??
felt like breaking into tears wen i saw those devastating results.
disappointinggggggggggg.
i broke my promise yet again on doin well fr MYE.
History is repeating itself. Just like wat i did last year.
But dat time im lucky enuf to make it thru. N level is 100 times different den O's.
N's chicken feet lah deyyy... heh..
niwaes...

Rite now, im promising myself yet again to do well fr prelims.
i have to.. its the only way fr me to gauge how O's standard is like.
and how well am i doing..
i need to take prelims really serious dis time round.
i dun wanna make the same mistakes dat i did.
Well..only time will tell.
I'll try my best not to procrastinate any further.

June hols, im so gonna be mugging fr the 1st time in my life.
its time to take action on my behaviour lately.
i wan to achieve my dream of goin Singapore Poly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just persevere for a few months..
Just a few more laps left in this race.
I'll make the final lap the best one i ever had.

Insyallah..


k lahh.
till here..
tc lovelies!